THE NEW OLD ME

I am wondering when they will begin to sleep through the night. Currently she goes to bed at 830pm and wakes at 2am for a feeding and then sleeps until 630am. I wonder how long I will be able to continue to get up at 2am for a feeding and then getting up to get ready for work a few hours later.

Ever see that hair ad where the baby is sitting on the mothers shoulders playing with the super frizzy mom's hair? They say, 'motherhood messing up your hair?' That is ME!

I guess I can sort of see or maybe sympathize why moms let themselves go after having a baby. Okay maybe not, because some people use that excuse to the ultimate max. I love the comment, 'I still have baby weight to lose' as their 10 year old kid comes running up to them. After a period of time, it is no longer baby weight and is deemed just extra weight which doesn't seem fair!

If only society understood what we go through to have children. I certainly didn't understand nor sympathize being one who had no children. Maybe it wasn't that I didn't understand, but I just didn't care. I mean it wasn't something I had planned on ever doing because I KNEW somewhere in the back of my mind there was more to it than they let on. It is a life changing body altering experience. We not only gain mass amount of weight, but our bones literally MOVE into different positions and places. How does anyone think or expect us to be as we once were pre-baby. You try carrying around 20 extra pounds for 9 months and see how you feel.

It isn't so much the extra weight because everyone gains weight in their life, but it's the added aches and strange creeks. Don't get me started on the new marks. I am more alter noticing new things or things are just sprouting. I was nervous, could I possibly have skin cancer. How does that happen? Increase in hormones and anything is possible. I know have different hair? I now have oily skin? I now have freckles? Are these stretchmarks and then the extra skin? The joys of motherhood... I sound like a completely different person!

I contemplate if I will ever fit back into my pre-baby clothes considering now I have hips and pre-baby I lacked curves. They say women love to shop. I want my pre-baby figure back so I do not have to buy new clothes.

A year ago the dilemmas of my day now seem so simple... what yoga class I was going to go to, what health food store I was going to shop at... what new poses I was going to teach that week... wow seems so different than bottles, milk, and daycare...