BACK TO WORK

I return to work on Monday. Everyone of course questions if I am going to freak out. I think I will be fine. I just hope that Madison is okay. I am actually excited to have adult interaction for myself as well as the kid interaction for Madison. I just hope she doesn't pick up some bad habits.

I went to see my office yesterday. Everyone in the office was excited to see baby. It was so nice to see everyone rush over as soon as they heard I brought Madison in for a moment to see them. They are such wonderful people and so supportive. I really got lucky with the people I work with, they make this transition a lot easier being so supportive and thoughtful.

So I did find a babysitter that will take her 3 days a week. I am nervous about the commute and the traffic. I figure the earlier I go the less traffic there will be. I am just realizing why new mothers decide to go crazy. Okay maybe not that extreme just the idea of continuing to breastfeed while working seems almost crazy. I keep hearing a lot of moms stopped breastfeeding so early. The idea is that I have to continue to pump milk in order to have the milk when needed which translates to pumping throughout the day while at work. I am going to become the BAG LADY all over again. I have to carry the breast pump, computer, purse, and figure out where and how I am going to store the milk. I see why new moms are like 'forget that', but my thoughts are that it is FREE and that in itself is enough for me.

Even though none of this was planned, it is amazing how everything fits together so well as if somewhere somehow I really did plan this. I go back to work just in time for a break from school. One transition at a time. I think that will help a lot! I cannot wait to get the school thing over with, but a break will help me figure out how to get to and from the sitters. I would hate to get lost not knowing where I left the baby!