THROWING UP AGAIN

Madison is sick again. She threw up all over the floor three different times, and then finishing by covering me in vomit. Who knew she could possibly be full of so much substance.

I called the Ped Dr in a little bit of a panic. This is not good she already lost a lb what is causing this. He was very nice, and said to monitor her tonight and to come see him tomorrow. If she continues to throw up tonight to call him and she will have to be seen tonight.

I am so tired. I am trying to find some sort of outlet for all this stress, as currently my skin in the inside of my mouth is the stress outlet. I have these cold sore type canker sores all OVER my mouth, throat, and gums. I think mostly I am just tired of no one doing anything to stop the problem. Plus the idea that her father has no idea what so ever that she is so ill. He has no idea that we stayed in the hospital for a week. I mean how wool he when he changes his phone number every time I try to reach him. People say to go to his parents house and hunt him down. What for? I should not have to do that. Plus, I understand that Madison has his genes and his JUNK DNA, but he is nothing to her but stranger she probably doesn't even remember so not as if he will help the situation. Plus it is obvious he does not want to be bothered or contacted by us by the apparent disconnected phone number.

So many people send their love and prayers... I am so nonchalant myself, so I get scared that I under react sometimes... so when the Dr gets worked up I tend to panic. This is me panicking... Never mind I am too tired to panic.