OPPS BABY MOMENTS

I do not sleep much. I never have been one to take naps or even sleep through the entire night. I often blamed this on my OCD, Obsession Compulsive Disorder. This desire to clean and organize everything at late hours of the night has kept me up many nights. You can never have something too clean so you can never clean too much.

The last two nights have been interesting. Madison slept through the entire night, yet I did not. I woke up every three hours as if WE were on the same schedule. I woke up at one point soaked from breast milk. At another point in the night I woke up as if I was holding the baby feeding her. I realized what I was doing and that there was no baby in my arms and half asleep I freaked out. I contemplated if I dropped her. Did I fall asleep while feeding her? Did I lose her in the mass amount of blankets and pillows on my bed? I frantically rummaged through my bedding searching for the grunting baby I could hear. I could hear her why could I not find her? I ran to the nursery to see her grunting in her sleep in her crib safe and sound.

Perhaps this means I am a super heavy sleeper or overly tired, then again I am consider it is a mixture of both.