At 34 weeks pregnant. Baby girl is due sometime in March. Due date March 16, 2009. Being me and what I know, I believe she is going to come much earlier than my due date.
Complications include: Intense Heart Burn no matter what foods I eat. Pre-term Labor, Heart complications, and Fibroid Tumor.
Cravings: hot chocolate and often even Milk.
In June 2008 - I thought I was dying of cancer. I lost a large amount of weight and my balance was destroyed. I knew immediately something was seriously different. I went to the doctors office complaining. I was given a full physical, blood work, Xrays, ultrasounds, and even sent to a balance institute. I thought I had cancer. I knew that something was growing inside of my body that could not be explained. I knew that it was taking over my senses and ability to stand in warrior III or in forward fold during yoga. I could not stand on one foot without falling over in Tree pose yet that was something I was able to do for 1o minutes prior to June.
I thought it was the end of the world when I actually smelled someones cheese burger and wanted a bite. I thought I was dying. A vegetarian for YEARS, suddenly craves MEAT? That should have been my first indication.
I went for an ultrasound and when I went back for the results they said either I had to be about 2-3 weeks pregnant. I of course went into shock. Couldn't breathe, I mean I never wanted kids and now I am having a baby. I contemplated abortion for half a moment and knew that could not be an option. I then contemplated adoption... I made a promise to the universe, if the baby was a girl I would keep her, however, if the baby was a boy I really considered adoption.
The mother instinct or ESP as some like to call it took over. I was awoken by a little girl one morning. Her name was Bella. She came to meet me and when I asked why she said I wasn't sure if you wanted me or not. I was convinced I was haunted. I then began to see her repeatedly out at stores or shopping or during the night always asking about me and her father. Of course at 12 weeks no one could tell me for sure that I was having a girl so I just told the doctor not to worry about the adoption talk because it's a girl. As most people do, he had to have thought I was crazy and offered a date of October 31, 2008 to find out the sex of the baby.
It was confirmed that I was having a girl. Which you are not allowed to choose your own name, so I battled with naming her Bella or not. I went with Belle as a middle name to honor somewhat of her and her ability to do what she did prior to birth. However, I wanted a strong name rather than a ballerina type name so I did not choose Bella.
At 20 weeks I went into Pre-term Labor. With my high tolerance to pain, I had no idea that I was having contractions. My belly became rather tight and I understood this cramping sensation created from sitting too long between work and school.
I decided to move around, and I went to walk the dog. As I walked the muscles got tighter and tighter making it more uncomfortable to walk. The next morning I ended up in the hospital at a high risk doctor's office. The contractions stopped, or at least the contractions I could feel. I was hooked to a monitor and was having mild contractions. A Fibroid Tumor was found on my cervix, which could be the results of the contractions.
The next appointment (December 2008) I was told that the fibroid was 7cm and could possibly cause problems during birthing. The ultrasound was almost over when the ultrasound tech found a small glimmer. I was told the baby had a hold in her heart. At 2lbs they could see her beating heart.
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